So... life. Well it keeps going. I am fluctuating between feeling really terrible about how things are going and being happy about life. I am still trying to find a place to live with some roommates. Every time we find some place that looks worthwhile it completely falls apart. It doesn't help that the person who has arguably the most complicated issues is out of town right now. He was also the person who was pretty much taking the lead on this entire process. I just hope we can manage to find a place before school starts.

Other then that being promoted at work is nice and all, but it's pretty stressful. I really am not completely sure that I can fully handle some of the requirements to do this job. I guess we will find out though.

Then of course there are issues or the romantic nature. I am in a position where I just wish I could be with someone or even just have more of a social life. This of course reflects onto the relationships I do have. I can't help but focus some of the frustration onto Ashley because she is beautiful and I have always been attracted to her. However she is not the only person in my life this is causing issues with. Ray is getting some of my anger directed at him because of the fact that he is with someone at the moment and he has been a bit of a dick about it. I need to chill out, but that is pretty much impossible.

I have been working on meditation lately and it helps a lot but i can't do it consistently. Tonight I should be working out so I hope I can get to bed early and wake up so I can eat and do stuff like meditate. I intentionally did not get hookah coals so I wouldn't be able to smoke tonight. I need to get better at making decisions like this.

As for music today... Let's go with this,



If you didn't know Jonsi is one of the vocalists for Sigur Ros and he is doing his own solo project. Broken Social Scene, Sigur Ros, The Denalis, and Blonde Redhead were some of the first indie bands I listened to that really made me say wow. So when I heard about Jonsi I had to check out the music and I was not disappointed at all.